Hi everybody!
I hope you are all doing well. To give you a
quick rundown, we set another baptismal date this week with a blind man and I
really felt the authority in this one! It was only our first appointment with
him! I'm excited to say that the man we had a baptism date with before, M, is
doing great. We had a Word of Wisdom lesson with him this week and he argued
with us for a while. So, we had nothing more to say, so we asked him if he'd
live it. He said, "Yup, of course!" What the heck, M? Ha ha, but he
really has a problem with smoking, and he's been really sick, so he hasn't been
able to smoke. Keep praying for him!
Now, here is where I need your help. I am sure
you all remember the story of R! He was a huge miracle that has happened on my
mission. He is 2 weeks away from his baptism and getting cold feet. Then, I just
received this email from him:
“Hey Guys,
i will be truly honest with you, like always. I
won´t follow this path any more. But i don´t say this without a reason. There
are so many reasons. In the last weeks a lot happens. Let my explain. But
first, all i will say, that this are my own thoughts and i won´t offend you.
You are amazing and i so glad, that i met you!.
Turn back time. In the fourth chapter of Nephi
kills Laban. There was a big doubt and a question mark in my mind, because of
this cruel action. I understand, why he did this and Laban got a second chance.
I understand the chapter. But then there was this assassinations in paris.
People who truly believe in a book by god kill other people, because
"god" told them to do this. Now you would come and say: okay, but we
believe, that only our Believes are the right one and all others aren´t true.
And that is a huge problem for me. I started this spiritual journey to get more
informations about your church. But i won´t believe, that i just pray the right
things and others aren´t.
Next problem is the word of wisdom. There are
things in it like drink no tea. But i won´t drink no tea. If i ill, i will
drink tea. From a medical side, there are helpful. You say, that life is a
journey full of tests, but i don´t think to lay down in bed and being sick,
this would be a test to truly believe in god.
A third and never spoken problem is the fact,
that i won´t get the highest kingdom, i totally looking forward go get the
middle one. And thats not all. It´s a honour to get the priesthood. But i won´t
it. I also don´t want to go and say to other people: hey, i believe the right
things and you didn´t. People should do the same as me. Just go and inform
about their believes and what they truly want in their lifes. Not the other
way.
Another big problem is chastity. Like i said in
the email before, i can´t follow this commandment. It´s a total censorship for
my work. And i can´t accept that fact.
Like i said in the beginning, i started this
journey to know more about your church. And i got this informations. It was a
truly inspiring and spiritual journey. You bring me back to god. I believe in
gods work. You gave me the opportunity to go away from alcohol and this is
great. I often got ask, why i won`t drink and on the last party i could see,
why i shouldn´t drink.
But my path isn´t over with the religion at all.
I will go back to my own church. Maybe, i´m not ready jet. But who knows.
Thank you for all!
R
I know that he is ready and just a little
nervous. I am asking you, if you possibly can, to just send a short testimony
or something inspiring to my email, so I can forward them to R next week! I
think it would really help him on his path. Thanks for all you guys do! It
would be great if you could help me out! Have a good week,
Elder Sam Hadfield
Friedrichstrasse 26
77654 Offenburg
Germany